i have broken every promise...
How fast emotions die. do i feel anything at all? am i living?
Am i underwater?
it's hitting me hard. my request to kill my self. my pride. my flesh. i am dying. but what is the price. that's what i said to God "whatever it takes, just kill my flesh". He is killing me. i am bleeding profusely. at times i feel like i am in a coma. my life is slipping by. life around me goes on but i am not praticipating in it, i am not even observing, i am not sure if i am even there...